Friendship,

The way old friends do

January 20, 2012 J. 0 Comments

Lola and I had a quibble. You know that quibble, right? The one you have with your best friend over a 'very serious matter' which you never can seem to remember and/or explain.

...and when you make up it's like nothing ever happened.
It all got me thinking about friendship and the kind of bonds we make. You don't go looking for it, it finds you. Fate. In our case it was Lola who found me and for that I'll forever be thankful. :)

...and then you get to a point when your silences are shared and comfortable. When only a single look can transmit a 1, 000 words.
You will fight and exchange words but you make up because even then you know that during your times of joy and sorrow there's no one you'd rather share it with.. you don't worry about your tomorrows because you know you're going to be facing it together...

She has seen you at your very worst and lowest. Through foiled plans, broken hearts, bad hair days and hang overs.


Here's to you, me, and those special friends that we are blessed with! Here's to us!

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Bin2,

1656-190112

January 19, 2012 J. 0 Comments

"Freeeeeeeeeeeeeedom!!!"

She screamed on the top of her lungs as she walked out of the exam hall. Medical Microbiology in the bag. Last exam over and done with (for this month anyway). I am currently in bed, skyping with Bin2 and not feeling even the tiniest bit guilty over putting any work aside. This is the life! 

I've ordered  'This won't hurt a bit' - which i have been meaning to read. Then i have a whole bunch other books too which i will list after my 18-hour coma. I need to catch up on all the sleep i lost this exam period. Then Monday, it starts all over again. Isn't that great?

You know, I'm not excited because i now have less work to do. On the contrary, I actually have more work to do now... BUT no exams means that I can start now. Well, not NOW, now. But soon. I want to fix the damage that i know i've caused. And if i'm actively working towards it, i can sleep better at night.

NOW, bed-time! Dream in colour!

Juicy RainDrops!!

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Uni

Failure is not an option

January 17, 2012 J. 0 Comments

I just went through the scheme of work for this semester. It promises to test both my mental and physical boundaries. Then when you factor in my volunteer work and Project Genesis then you've got yourself one very, very short fused Cancerian. But God is in control.
I just have to give as good as i get!
There's this competency test (which i mentioned in passing last year). Basically it's a 3-hour lab session with a pass/fail grade. Fail and you repeat the year. It's that simple, or at least straight-forward.

I have also gone and set myself a ridiculously high goal which i actually have to achieve if i even want to continue dreaming about my first class. No pressure.
I once read a quote that went:
"Make success your only option and then go about your business like you've got no other option."

I am going to focus on that now. Success, that is, by adopting a positive attitude and curbing my cynical thoughts.... *LOL!* I really thought i could say all that with a straight face. No such luck. But seriously, i intend to work harder this semester. I need to, my priorities have changed.

Should still be interesting though, don't you think?

Juicy RainDrops!

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Growth,

Heart Vacancy

January 16, 2012 J. 0 Comments

People come into our lives for reasons and seasons. I have always understood that (or at least tried to). Those same people will eventually leave. I know that. And it is for that reason that i do not allow them into my heart. I do not take temporary tenants as letting go is always too painful an experience. So i roomed only a few and prided myself on the fact that with just my few Jewels, i was content.

Little did i know that the winds would blow the other way. Sure i didnt let 'new' people in, but those same 'old' ones took turns twisting their blades in me. Kaku... Ray... Where are they today?
I don't think of them often. But recently i have begun to. Trying to see if the problem lay with me. The way i see it, my only fault was loving them too much. Giving them that much of me. But then of course i am biased. I am The Psychward Breakout after all. Living with me must definitely be a hardship.

I was in that frame of mind when i felt another Jewel slipping from my grasp. What could i do? Fight for what i loved of course. So i fought. But instead of victory, it felt as if with every battle, i lost her just a little bit more. The pain accompained with that thought was much worse than having a mere blade plunged into me... so i stepped back. Like the warriors of my past lives i knew that some battles were lost before they even reached the battlefield. This was one of them. So i sheathed my sword. This was one war, i wouldn't win.

Legend I am, in battle. Legend I am, as a warrior. Legend I am... in love! I hope you find all that you seek.

Juicy RainDrops!

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Uni

Fight or flight?

January 14, 2012 J. 0 Comments

I just did some quick calculations based on my predicted grades for this exam and the numbers aren't looking good at all. I knew that I'd taken a huge gamble on this exam but i didn't realize just how big a gamble till i saw the numbers. I'm gonna have to tighten my proverbial belt this semester to get the 70% average i need. I am feeling quite deflated at the moment as you can imagine but no time to sulk, Pharmacology exams on Tuesday. Work! Work! Work!

*Oh! and about the ghost story below, i figured every Friday The 13th deserved a good ghost story! :)

Juicy RainDrops!

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Nattarg

Ghost on the rooftop..

January 13, 2012 J. 0 Comments

Ghosts? Don’t be ridiculous, as a scientist you know that there are no such things. But you see in Nattarg Apartments there was a ghost..
We all know that there isn’t anything magical about the rooftop of Nattarg Apartments. It’s just bare open space with not a single piece of furniture. The only sign of life up there are the cigarette buds of the Asian guy in flat 13 who goes up there for a smoke. There’s also the guy in flat 20 who sits with him sometimes. Late at night though when the general public is either in bed, drunk, drinking.. or getting there, a small figure takes the stairs from the first floor up to the rooftop. The figure stands watch for a little while before taking a sit at the far end corner. There it stays unmoving for about an hour before making its way back to the first floor and there all traces of existence vanish. None of the security cameras have been able to catch the figure’s ascend and/or descend every weekend. This phenomena just became known and accepted as the “Bride’s visits”

Rumors say that raised voices could sometimes be heard from the rooftop during these “visits”. There have been no eye witnesses though as no one who has lived to meet this ghost has lived beyond that point. Well, that’s just a bit dramatic don’t you think? The truth is that no one has ever seen her.  She was dubbed female when one of the rumors claimed that she left a very faint scent of parfume in the air. Some say she curses, others say that she weeps. One school of thought is that she was a girl who lived in a house which had been located where the present day Nattarg Apartments was built, so she goes up to the highest point of the building to cry for her lost home. Another is that she was a wrongly accused and killed witch who was buried beneath the building. So she hunts and curses all the tenants every few nights. The most widely accepted though is that she was a bride left waiting at the altar, jilted by her lover. And still, even in death she makes her way to the altar to await her beloved. When it seems like all hope is lost and her lover doesn’t show she wails and cries up there and leaves.. Only to return the next week to wait again.

So many imaginative ideas dontcha think? But I know the truth. About the little creature that lives on the first floor who loves to just sit up there at night and gaze at the stars and reflect. Hoping beyond hope that she understands what she needs and sending thanks for her circle. I know this because she tells me so.. every weekend when we sit together on the rooftop of Nattarg Apartments watching the skies and envisioning worlds beyond our own. She was that kind of person.

The rumors were right about one thing, she is female. Not your average Casper unfortunately but interesting enough for a living apparition.

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Crush

New Crush Alert!

January 12, 2012 J. 0 Comments

I just found one of tv's best kept secrets - Behold, David Krumholtz! Oh my gosh! The man is just beauty-FULL! (Or he is when he's playing Charlie Epps in 'Numb3rs' anyway!) I needed some sleeping material (usually boring shows, black and white films etc..) so i put on an episode and now i'm done with the first season!!

Oh, his smile! X.X I'm love-struck!

Don't believe me? See for yourself.


Now imagine THIS spitting mathematical principles like rap lyrics. No Joke. Again, his smile!! It's so cute and sheepish and cute! And the hair!! All curly and unruly. It suits him.

Yes, I do have my girly moments and this is one of them. I'm sorry but this beats Tom Cruise in a Russian General's uniform. NEW CRUSH STATUS CONFIRMED!

*Long, dreamy sigh*

 Juicy RainDrops!

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Movies 2012

January 11, 2012 J. 2 Comments

Top 20 movies I'm looking forward to this year ISA:

January:
1. The Iron Lady -- Saw the trailer and loved it. Margaret Thatcher's my kind of woman. Must-see!
2. Haywire -- I love movies with good-agents-gone-rogue. All the adrenaline, ass kicking and justice-killing! (LOL!) - A must-see!
3. Underworld: Awakening -- Always gives me goosebumps but i keep coming back. Must-see!

February:
4. Man on a Ledge -- Nice trailer. Might see!
5. This Means War -- Saw trailer. Comedy. Nice! Might see!
6. Ghost Rider: Spirit of Vengeance -- Nicholas Cage returns as the Ghost Rider. A definite must-see!

March:
7. Wrath of the Titans -- Suppose to be a sequel to 'Clash of the Titans'. Will give it a chance.

May:
8. Men in Black 3 -- "Here come the men in black..." - I never did know the next line to the song. :) MUST-SEE!!
9. The Avengers -- All my favorite Marvel Superheroes in one movie (happy dance) - Must see!

June:
 10. G.I Joe 2: Retaliation -- No explanation needed. Must-see! 

July:
11. Ice Age 4: Continental Drift -- I didn't really like the 3rd one so i hope this one's better. 
12. The Dark Knight Rises -- Again, Marvel Superhero! :D
13. Step Up 4 -- Not really sure why this is here. I didn't even watch the third one. :P

August:
14. The Bourne Legacy --  MUST-SEE!

15. Diary of a Wimpy Kid 4: Dog days -- Haha! Definite must-see.

September: 
16: Resident Evil: Retribution -- Must- see!


October:
17. Paranormal Activity 4 -- I don't usually do horror films but... *hides face* I saw the third with Knight. Seems only right that i see the fourth, don't you think? Must-see!

November:
18. Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn II -- Do you even need to ask? #TeamJacob! #TeamWolf! (I just had to add that) *Sweet smile*

Well not exactly 20 then - Sue me! - and a significant majority are sequels.

As you can see i've clearly had a little free time on my hands. Today's exam was well-deserved. I actually can't wait to see my result and that is saying something. Now to catch up on 12 hours worth of sleep...

Juicy RainDrops!

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Uni

Immunology or Apocalypse?

January 10, 2012 J. 0 Comments

Sorry for being M.I.A. these past few days. January exams are here and you know what that means - Whose great idea was it to have exams right after the Christmas break anyway?  Needless to say that with the family here i didn't do as much work over the break as i should have so i was a bucket full of nerves today. I didn't sleep and couldn't eat. I had to keep reminding myself that it was an Immunology exam and not the freaking apocalypse. Of course that little bit of logic didn't help at all as I was far beyond the point of reason. As far i was concerned immunology exam was the apocalypse. You see, because the genius in charge of designing my semester timetable put in 2 hours of immunology right after 3 hours of Medical Microbiology every Tuesday, i barely ever listen and/or attend immunology lectures. After 3 hours of Microbio even you would need a break.

Anyway, that's all history now and the exam went well. So much better than I'd thought actually. But before i have my victory dance i'll see what tomorrow's paper is like.

EMBARRASSING STORY ALERT!
I think i mentioned somewhere up there that i hadn't been able to eat prior to my exams. Well, my tummy noticed too for 30 minutes into the exam it started rumbling. Loud. And endlessly. You know the normal 'grrrr' we all get once in a while, well mine was more along the lines of 'grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!' And just when i think it's finally stopped, it starts again. I could've died of embarrassment because the exam hall was so quiet! *covers face* I didn't turn to see if anyone had heard because i just knew they had. Especially Tom who was sitting RIGHT NEXT TO ME! My suspicions were confirmed when less than 10minutes later, Tom's stomach growled as well. Loud and clear! Call me devilish but i felt a kinship to him at that very moment... and had to forcefully bite back a smile. :)

Juicy RainDrops!

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Change

2.0.1.2

January 06, 2012 J. 0 Comments

I started this blog (as with most people) as a vent. A place where there wouldn't be any rules and if there were any, they would be dictated by me. But somewhere along the line i got too personal. And more and more of the people in my reality kept finding their way here. I didn't want anyone who knew me seeing that much into me. It was way too close for comfort. What I'm trying to say is that I'd gotten too attached to this blog. Put too much of myself into it. I had to take time off. And now that I'm back, I'm going to take out a few entries. Just a minority.

This blog will still hold an essence of me. And i will still put up entries when i can. I will tell you hilarious university stories and complain about education too. I will tell you about how i fear I'm falling love and how i danced in the rain. i will write about love, pain and friendship.. and as i want to forgive someone that really hurt me a couple of years back, i will write about forgiveness too. It's time.

It's a new year - (have any resolutions?) - I do! I want to Live more, Love more and Laugh more. It's that simple. I'm also going to face a couple of my fears - Not really great fears but fears nonetheless.

I want to do a lot of exciting things. Witness a miracle. Do something extraordinary. Pause and gape in wonder. Be surprised. Be impressed. Write a letter. Befriend a stranger. Ride a roller-coaster. Create memories. Keep pictures... And lots more.

I hope you will let me share all these with you.

It's good to be back.


Juicy RainDrops!

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