Quotes..

November 30, 2012 J. 0 Comments

"When tears come, I breathe deeply and rest. I know I am swimming in a hallowed stream where many have gone before. I am not alone, crazy, or having a nervous breakdown... My heart is at work, my soul is awake." - Mary Margaret Funk

"See if you can catch yourself complaining in either speech or thought, about a situation you find yourself in, what other people do or say, your surroundings, your life situation, even the weather. To complain is always nonacceptance of what is. It invariably carries an unconscious negative charge. When you complain, you make yourself a victim. Leave the situation or accept it. All else is madness." - Eckhart Tolle

"I shall shape my future. Whether I fail or succeed shall be no man's doing but my own. I am the force; I can clear any obstacle before me. Or I can be lost in the maze. My choice. My responsibility. Win or lose, only I hold the key to my destiny." - Anon

"Exert your talents, and distinguish yourself, and don't think of retiring from the world, until the world will be sorry that you retire." - Samuel Johnson 

"Now I am the voice!
I will lead, not follow!
I will believe, not doubt!
I will create, not destroy!
I am a force for good!
I am a leader!
Defy the odds!
Set a standard!
Step up!" - Tony Robbins

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One Word, Four letters.

November 19, 2012 J. 0 Comments

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I figured out what the most powerful word in the world is (to me anyway). One word, four letters.

M: Love?
J: No.

But otherwise i have been awful/wonderful. depends on who you ask. I have been working non-stop just like I knew I would have to. My schedule has never been worse. And even though I have a new tv show that I love, "Fringe", I haven't had time to get into it as much as I'd like. :P

 Hate?
No.

Oh! and just when i was about to give up (permanently!!) on "Once upon a time", they brought a new guy into it. He's totally hot and I love the role he plays, so yes i'm staying.

Hope?
No.

This is Colin O'Donoghue, or as i like to refer to him now - my newest crush!

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You should see him smile too. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... *love-struck*

Fate?
No.

I only just realized that my last 3 crushes have been Irishmen. Hmmm.. Maybe I should move to Ireland.. right after I return from The Gambia. Good food comes first.

Then what?

Stay.

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karma

November 18, 2012 J. 0 Comments

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i have always believed in karma. good, bad, whatever! whatever you do comes back to you. that's the law of the universe.

i needed to open with that before i got down to it.
so.

back when i was in primary school, we had a female teacher who had a beard. yes, seriously. well, not a beard-beard exactly but she had really long and obvious strands of hairs sticking out from underneath her chin. her name was 'aunty Philo'. ("aunty" because i am Nigerian and for some reason we call our primary school teachers that.)
anyway.

we called her beard face, my friends and i. yeah, we were the very naughty sort that drove teachers insane. but not aunty Philo. she was as mean and nasty as they came. she flogged the living daylights out of us whenever we misbehaved. but we never learnt. we did become cautious around her, but we never stopped our misdeeds.
and here's the kicker. she wasnt even our class teacher. she didnt even teach our grade at all. we went out of our way to find and torment her. we theorized that she had the beard because of how mean and evil she was.

poor woman.

i saw her this summer during my sister's graduation ceremony. she still teaches at my old alma mata. she still had the beard too. i sniggered when she wasn't looking.

but then, this afternoon while i was working on my presentation, i felt something on my face, so i went to the mirror and right there, beneath my chin, was one strand of curly hair.

i screamed. and screamed some more. then took a razor to it. i am dying of mortification even as i write this but i understand why. karma chose the perfect way to repay me for aunty Philo.

*sigh*

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November 04, 2012 J. 0 Comments

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i am learning that tears don't always signify weakness. sometimes they are just what you need to let go and move on. no, this isn't about a boy. it's about genetics actually.

i sat down for 7 hours straight working on my genetics power-point presentation on cystic fibrosis. i had read so many scientific journals at that point that my head was reeling; but it felt good too. i was working and making very good progress. Arsenal may not have made me very happy, but Hamilton had. so yes, it was a good day.

then Microsoft power-point crashed.

i wasn't bothered. there was this awesome creation called "auto-save"... except the last time it saved was 17:05 and the time was 23:10.

what i did first was laugh, and laugh hard. and then i cried. really, really hard. then i had a very hot shower and got back to work.

i was able to re-do most of the work from memory in about an hour.. then i put in an extra 2 hours doing more work and research - just for good measure.

yes.

i don't succumb to failure and allow myself to get disheartened and demoralized the way i used to. as long as there is breath in me, i will keep trying.. or else nothing will get done. nothing at all. nada!

anything worth doing is worth doing right.. and if you want something done right, you have to do it yourself. Simples! :)

now, it's 02:21. and yea, i'm beat! awesome, but beat.

Sleep tight,

Juicy Raindrops! ♡ 

Deliver us

November 02, 2012 J. 0 Comments

I have loved this song since the very first time i watched "The Prince of Egypt" back when i was much, much younger. It's sad and it's beautiful. Enjoy..


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November 02, 2012 J. 0 Comments

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I just weighed in. :(

I knew I shouldn't have had so much of my Eid cake.. but it was White Forest, who can resist? Anyway, no weight loss for this week. Weight gain = 0.5kg

In other more cheerful news, i'm writing again. Not just blog updates... Real writing (if there's any such thing). I went into a trance-like state yesterday and wrote for 6 hours straight. It was a story I'd started ages before. I called it "Friends and Lovers".

It was first inspired by Rado. And I admit that the dynamics between Rafe and Lily was given birth to by the ones between Rado and myself. But then the characters grew and became so much more.

I've decided to share their story. I believe they've earned the right to have that. And i will too.. as soon as my editor (Bin2) is done critiquing it.

I haven't finished it yet. I'm on the last chapter though. I don't how it's going to end. I usually never do. But they've got me rooting for them! :)

There's so much more I wish i could say. But alas, my break time is over. Maybe some other time.



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Pic Post

October 28, 2012 J. 0 Comments

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I promised you pictures, you get pictures..

Notice the missing cherry? That was me!

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October 28, 2012 J. 0 Comments

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i think i'm in a mood.. but anyway, it's sunday! it means that:

• my eid break and dinner are both over and done with. (i promise you pictures!)
• the last of my weekend guests have left and i have my solitude back. 
• i am so very tired and have a crick in my neck from sleeping on the couch.
• my soles hurt like hell from standing (first, when i was cooking then when i was hosting).
• it means that i should be feeling rather blessed and fulfilled right about now.

but, it also means that:

•  i haven't picked up a book or done anything remotely academic since thursday morning.
•  i have let some work begin to pile up. (i use "begin" here charitably).
•  i am so gonna be screwed over the next couple of weeks if i do not bring my A-game.

in conclusion, today's being sunday (for me) equals:

• an end (of any so-called 'free' time), and
• a beginning (of mad, crazy, 24/7, beast-of-burden, belt-tightened, socks pulled up, migraine-inducing and sometimes even crying jag-inducing work). exactly what Pappi pays my tuition fees for! 

so there is no reason whatsoever why i should be panicked, is there? i mean it is only my final year and possible future after all. no big deal!

yup, definitely in a mood, wouldn't you say?


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#LittleJoys,

First weigh-in/Eid Mubarak

October 26, 2012 J. 0 Comments

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I just weighed in.. and i have lost 1kg!! :) This put me in a good enough mood to write.

This week has been filled with a whole lot of minute annoyances; the worst was when my shower suddenly started leaking, swamping my toilet and even ruining the ceiling of the apartment below mine. *sigh* like i said, little annoyances.

but, i hung in there. my 'whatever works' philosophy seems to be working for me just fine. oh, Lola's coming over today and my annual eid dinner is tomorrow. :) the guest list at the moment comprises of about 33 people. i don't mind cooking for that many people especially since this could be my last one in braddie. ("could be" because i still don't know what my future holds).. i don't mind though. things tend to fall into place at their own pace. for me, anyway.


yup, i am going to be just fine.

EID MUBARAK MY LOVELY READERS!!!

May we live to see many more.

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Thor 2 and Iron Man 3?

October 20, 2012 J. 0 Comments

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Did you know about this?

I only just found out and i haven't yet decided how i feel about it. i (really, really, REALLY) love me some Tony Stark, but a third one? isn't that pushing it just a little too much? and another Thor too?

*shrug*

i don't know man, and i don't care. what i do know is that come 2013 - May (Iron Man) and  November (Thor) - i am gonna watch me some Marvel superhero action, whether it sucks or not! {Plus i hear Iron Man has a new armor which was displayed at this year's comic-con}

Release dates:

• Iron Man 3 (May 3, 2013)
  
• Thor: The Dark World (November 8, 2013)
  

Also, coming in 2014...

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Movie Reviews (1)

October 20, 2012 J. 0 Comments

i thought i'd done this earlier but apparently not. for that i apologize.

Haywire: appealing trailer, rubbish movie. and believe that it does pain me to say this because i usually love Antonio Banderas' movies. i felt ripped off at the end of it all. the only saving grace was that i watched Man On A Ledge immediately afterwards and that soothed me. it was a great movie - just as i thought it'd be.

Ghost Rider 2: hmm.. it was weird. he turned into an angel of vengeance and well, i don't know. it wasn't for me. but the stunts were really good.

Safe House: it was AWESOME! it's like my 2012 version of 'Fast Five'. (remember how hyped i was by that movie too?). i had every one of my friends watch it too. yes, i thought it was that good. would watch it again!

Underworld Awakening: it was a good movie. though, i hyped it so much that i was almost just a little bit disappointed. but no, it was good. and the fights were fierce. it had a to-be-continued ending. {in bin2's words, "david o' david!"}

John Carter was very Star Wars/avatar-ish but i still loved it. plus it had a twist in the end which i appreciated. just make sure you watch it in 3D - it was a great experience!

Mirror, Mirror: worst version of snow white i have ever seen. *shrug*

Snow White and The Huntsman: why? i really, really expected more.

The Hunger Games: so i didn't read the book beforehand but well, i do not know. it showed imagination on the part of the author and the movie producers did a good job of it. it moved me, but there was something else i can't quite put my finger on.

Think Like A Man: now that was a funny film.. but romantic too. i liked it.

Avengers Assemble: you can't go wrong with that many Marvel superheroes.. but they very almost did. i mean, between Loki's return and his control over Hawk-eye.. *sigh* i simply focused on screaming my lungs out whenever Iron Man came on! *wink*

Men In Black 3: there were funny bits.. and there was a moment or two when i thought, wtf? but it was good all-in-all.

Taken 2: i love me some Liam but i have to say no to this one. could've been so much better.

Wrath Of The Titans: i looked forward to this so much so that i went to see it the day it was released in cinemas. Zeus and Hades made up and then died. that is all i have to say.

Battleship: Another Liam movie. now, this one was more like it. loved it!


Regrettably i have yet to watch Spiderman, Dark Knight and This means war. Will remedy that soon.


**G.I Joe 2: Retaliation release date is in March, 2013.


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Diet

Here we go again..

October 19, 2012 J. 0 Comments

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it seems like i'm always on one sort of diet or the the other, doesn't it? but that really isn't the case.. or not particularly anyway. i have very strong discipline when it comes to all aspects of my life.. but not this one. it depresses me that i can't just lose the damn weight and keep it off. the digits on the scale keep laughing at me.

anyway, i'm going to try it, this one last time and see how it goes - except this time, no 'fancy' diet. no lemonade, no cayenne pepper, no supplements, no nothing. i'm only going to cut my rations and eat healthy. everything in moderation, yes?

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i am supposed to write down - honestly - why i want to do this. the truth has only very little to do with BMI's and high BP's anymore. i just want to feel like myself again. i'm not trying to turn into a stick figurine, i just want comfort - well, more comfort anyway. i love my body, it's the muffin top that gives me nightmares. (you know that muffin top, yea? i hate it!)

anyway, i aim to lose between 0.5-1kg per week. that's within a healthy range, no? i'll keep at it for 60 days, by the end of which i should have lost about 8kg (hopefully).


*see new page 'next 60 days' to track my progress.



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Rado

The Final Chapter

October 18, 2012 J. 0 Comments

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I have started this particular piece more times than i care to count. every time i think it is time for a curtain call, something happens that shifts it all a different way. just to off-set my balance. but then that has always been your effect on me too, hasn't it?

you let me fool myself into thinking that we have found some pattern, reached some sort of equilibrium, then you yank the rug from under my feet. i'm always almost just about gaining that understanding of what and how we are when you blow in like Katherina leaving nothing but pain and destruction in your wake.

fine.

maybe that last line was a bit of an exaggeration. but it is the way you make me feel. you push me over the end so i have only you to hold on to. and does it make any kind of sense to grab onto the same force that is trying to destroy you? i mean, that is like running into a hurricane to escape it.

wait.

i have heard before that the eye of a hurricane is its calmest part.

damn.

see? this is exactly what i'm talking about. the kind of confusion and unpredictablility that i do not need.

so.

this is it. the last one. there will be no other after this. kalas! shikenan!


the end.

(or is it..?)


shut up.


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book

Mr. Anonymous

October 18, 2012 J. 0 Comments

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• The Book With No Name

• The Eye of The Moon

• The Devil's Graveyard

So over the course of summer, i read these three books by an anonymous author. My mother insisted they were good, so i gave them a shot.

What my mother should have said was, they are AWESOME!! The author mixes imagination and humor perfectly, i believe. It is so well written and i was impressed through every page! I haven't been this impressed by a book since ... (Let me get back to you on that).

So Mr. Anonymous*, i wait for the day when you decide to reveal yourself.. I will wait in line for you to sign all of my books, but for now, a fourth book would be nice. I need some more Bourbon Kid in my life! :)


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*i can't be sure of the gender of the author of course, but i'm leaning towards Mr.

100th Post

October 17, 2012 J. 0 Comments

After my depression bout, i kinda-sorta fell into the books. no, not academic books (of course), i meant novels. ha, ha! you should know me better.

I read a couple of M&B's and i have to say, they don't make them the way they used to. especially the historical romance. they used to make my toes curl. i used to have a novel in one hand while stirring the pot with the other hand. yes, they used to be that good. but now i just flip through the pages. *sigh* anyway i am not here to criticize.

I let Bin2 talk me into going for a toga frat party. yes, i wore a toga (made out of bedsheets), but it did look really good with the gold accessories. what i aimed for was an Athena-kinda look and i believe i hit that. anyway the party itself wasn't as terrible as i thought it'd be. i boogied (do people still say that?) and well, it helped me loosen up. i spent the entire weekend eating junk and sleeping. no cares, no worries. this made for a very good comeback on monday morning. ironic, isn't it?

anyway, i am back on track AND studying too (yes, now i mean academics). year 3 is mostly self-directed study, which to be honest, suits me just fine. i get to decide my own schedule rather than have knowledge shoved down my throat. i appreciate that, but it also means that i have to start deciding/working on what i want to Master in. i still don't know yet, to be honest. but hey, we'll see what happens.

by the way, did you watch the presidential debate last night? i saw a replay this morning. i am no political expert or anything so i'll keep my opinions to myself *zip* but i'll say one thing, i'm still rooting for Obama.

can i use this opportunity to thank my readers? i know you can't leave comments because I turned off the feature, but i know you're there.. even when i am not making a lick of sense. thank you! i love you for taking the time out. :)

AND ..

because this is my 100th post, i'm gonna do something totally out of the blue like share with you a picture of my Athena look for the toga party.. (yes, i'm very nice).





p.s - if what you can see is a depiction of the real Athena, then you must have missed the photo viewing. maybe next time?

thank you again for stopping by..


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October 04, 2012 J. 0 Comments

So i'd like to believe that we now know each other well enough to admit some brutal, painful truths. Like the fact that i am a complete masochist, repeatedly throwing myself in the line of fire. *sigh*

I had a dream about Ray last night. I won't get into the details of it, but i don't need psychic powers to know why i did. i'd been sad.. so i simply fell back to the old and familiar.

I'll get past this bad habit that i have of doing so. I know i will. Give me time.

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October 03, 2012 J. 0 Comments

 

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Friendship

Inspired by Ted

October 01, 2012 J. 0 Comments

"Friendship is an involuntary reflex." - Ted Mosby (How I Met Your Mother)

So i'm sitting here staring at my screen and trying desperately to think of words that can accurately or even moderately explain the way that i'm feeling right now.. HIMYM is showing on the TV and that's when i hear the quote above. It made me smile because you see, part of what i'd been obsessing about was my friendship with Lola.

We are in different cities and therefore have made new friends. We've been having a lot tension of late. Don't misunderstand me. I love my new friends and Lola and i, we go way back.. but we have been slowly but surely losing each other. Our ability to talk with or without words is fading. It has been so for a while if i'm honest.

When i saw that i couldn't save us and also couldn't be friends with her friends, i accepted what i considered to be the inevitable. I didn't try anymore. And when i noticed that she was trying too, i didn't budge because why delay the inevitable, yeah?

I can be a huge drama queen but my feelings still remain - no matter under how many layers i hide them.

That i didn't do anything didn't mean that i didn't care. I was simply, in my own twisted way, protecting myself from the hurt that i knew would follow. Cutting off the strings on my own terms.

Yeah, i know it was awfully foolish of me NOW, but 2 months ago, it made a whole lot of sense. Like i keep stressing, i am not perfect. Not even close.

Anyway.

What i understand from the this one episode of HIMYM is that you can't dictate the rules of true friendship. It's either there, or it isn't. You can try to save it when it's on the rocks, i guess but you can only do so much.. the rest is an involuntary reflex - just like a cat coughing up a fur ball.

I get that now. So, i won't obsess about it so much anymore. It either will be, or it won't.. either way, Day will overtake Night, only to be overtaken itself. That is the way of the world.

Juicy RainDrops! ♡


N.B
Happy Independence Day Nigeria! 

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September 29, 2012 J. 0 Comments

 

Rado

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September 28, 2012 J. 0 Comments

i haven't written in a while. i didn't feel the need to. plus, it was summer and i was growing.

but here i am today. i am writing. and it is because of him. the one man who i am always able to write about so freely. i'm writing about Rado.

with so many factors against us i wonder how it is that we can still even talk to each other at all. if you can call what we do now talking, that is. but somehow we find a way to do just that.

we end up fighting and not speaking afterwards of course, but we always find our way to back. i wonder how many strikes we have left.

i shouldn't feel this way. neither of us should. it would make picking up the phone so much easier. i remember a time when it was so. but if we didn't feel this way, would we have any need for the phone?

sometimes i think our cue has passed and it was a one-night-only performance. other times i think our soundtrack hasn't been put on yet. i wonder which one of the two is actually wishful-thinking on my path.

i want to talk to him. right at this very moment. but i wont.

anyway, the line is busy again.

Growth,

To be; Or not to be

September 22, 2012 J. 0 Comments

Speaking of life changing decisions, there's a topic i have been hesitant to address - My future career, which isn't so future anymore. Next year i will be done with Biomed ISA. Now, I've thought really long and hard about this.. and i hope that i have made the right decision. Bomb-shell alert!

I have decided to not apply for Medical School after all.

God, going to medical school and becoming a doctor is all i have known for a very long time and now, it isn't what i seem to want anymore. My decision doesn't stem from any sort or form of under-confidence. I am too self-assured (vain?) for that but I do have other reasons:

1. Biomedical Science:
I didn't intend to, believe me, it just hit me but i am in love with Biomed. I love what i do, what i learn, the critical thinking, the frustrating hours, even immunology! Biomed was initially just a means to an end for me.. with the end being Medicine of course. I had been too immature and unprepared to tackle it at 18. Biomed was suppose to give me the experience, growth and confidence i needed, but in the end i wound up falling for it, i love it! Biomed is a laid-back kind of course but at the same time not boring, which makes it almost tailor-cut for me.


2. Hard work:
I am honest enough to admit that i am a lazy bum. Okay that's incorrect but i have thought about the work involved in pursuing a career in medicine. I have listened to med students and residents alike. Read blogged accounts of those who are going through and those who have gone through it. I envisioned myself in that position and well, it wasn't a pretty image. Not that i ever expected it to be one. But it was more gruesome and demoralizing than i had initially thought. I am in a very precarious state of sanity as it is (hence the psych-ward breakout), i fear that if i put that kind of pressure on myself, i would eventually go over the deep end.

What i have learned from my rather limited survey is that brains alone won't get me through med school. Med school (as i understand it) is 70% hard work, 30% brilliance. I'd have to put in 102% of myself all the time for 4 years. I don't mind the time range, it's the work FORCE that inhibits me. I do work hard for things i want, but sometimes not hard enough. I don't want this to be one of those cases. Plus, i have so many plans for my biomed degree too, ISA.

This is all so much easier to talk about than I'd initially thought. I am not sad. I feel empowered that i was able to make such a huge decision for myself.. and a huge one, it is! I am not a failure. I am just wiser and more insightful than i once was. At first it felt like i was letting go of a major part of me but then i realized that i was substituting one dream for another. Paving the way for change and hopefully better things. Kind of like letting go of Ray; it was needed for my growth and development. Ha, ha! Perhaps i may have grown after all (just not taller, still the height of an average 14-year old boy). *sigh*

There is no 'right' choice i believe. but if there were one, i hope i have made it.


Juicy RainDrops! ♡

P.s
I got into my final year specialization option - Medical Biochemistry. And my grades were really, really good too (way above average). i guess i really can achieve things when i put my back into it.

Broken Angel

June 24, 2012 J. 0 Comments

They had drawn me.

Happy 21st Birthday, Lola!

March 31, 2012 J. 0 Comments

Dear Lola,

I am ashamed to admit that I didn't know what to get you for your birthday this year. I thought long and hard about it but the only thing you really wanted i couldn't give to you. You've been so hooked on your desire to have a child that you've left me helpless as to what to get. I thought about getting you one of those Baby Annabelle dolls that cry, poop and sleep. I actually loved the idea until i realised that giving a Baby Annabelle to a 21-year old girl woman, wasn't the best idea i'd ever had. I mean at 21 you could go to war, buy and drink alcohol at a pub, vote, drive and even get married. No, a Baby Annabelle definitely wouldn't do.

21 is THE age. So were 16 and 18 but 21 is suppose be the pinnacle of our lives. I have to make it momentous for you.

Then it hit me.

The perfect idea:  I would take you up on the highest point i could find. And while we're up there i will show you the world (well at least part of it). Show you the numerous possibilities that awaited you. You can literally be anything or do anything. The world is your oyster, your playing field. You only have to play it, live it. Live, for those who have become before you and those who will come after you. Live, for those that you love and those that will love you. Live, because this is a chance that you have been given. Embrace it and live, because not doing so will have made your very existence futile.

Live and leave your footprints in the sands of time.. and in the hearts you will have touched. Live, darling because you only get to do it once. So make mistakes, fall in love, get hurt, be loved, prosper and never, ever  forget the journey.

Have an awesome day.

Bucket loads of love,

Jasmine-Marie.

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March 30, 2012 J. 0 Comments

It's Easter break! *Phew* I can breath again.

Return of the Psychward breakout!

March 29, 2012 J. 0 Comments

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaack!!

Friendship,

The way old friends do

January 20, 2012 J. 0 Comments

Lola and I had a quibble. You know that quibble, right? The one you have with your best friend over a 'very serious matter' which you never can seem to remember and/or explain.

...and when you make up it's like nothing ever happened.
It all got me thinking about friendship and the kind of bonds we make. You don't go looking for it, it finds you. Fate. In our case it was Lola who found me and for that I'll forever be thankful. :)

...and then you get to a point when your silences are shared and comfortable. When only a single look can transmit a 1, 000 words.
You will fight and exchange words but you make up because even then you know that during your times of joy and sorrow there's no one you'd rather share it with.. you don't worry about your tomorrows because you know you're going to be facing it together...

She has seen you at your very worst and lowest. Through foiled plans, broken hearts, bad hair days and hang overs.


Here's to you, me, and those special friends that we are blessed with! Here's to us!

Bin2,

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January 19, 2012 J. 0 Comments

"Freeeeeeeeeeeeeedom!!!"

She screamed on the top of her lungs as she walked out of the exam hall. Medical Microbiology in the bag. Last exam over and done with (for this month anyway). I am currently in bed, skyping with Bin2 and not feeling even the tiniest bit guilty over putting any work aside. This is the life! 

I've ordered  'This won't hurt a bit' - which i have been meaning to read. Then i have a whole bunch other books too which i will list after my 18-hour coma. I need to catch up on all the sleep i lost this exam period. Then Monday, it starts all over again. Isn't that great?

You know, I'm not excited because i now have less work to do. On the contrary, I actually have more work to do now... BUT no exams means that I can start now. Well, not NOW, now. But soon. I want to fix the damage that i know i've caused. And if i'm actively working towards it, i can sleep better at night.

NOW, bed-time! Dream in colour!

Juicy RainDrops!!

Uni

Failure is not an option

January 17, 2012 J. 0 Comments

I just went through the scheme of work for this semester. It promises to test both my mental and physical boundaries. Then when you factor in my volunteer work and Project Genesis then you've got yourself one very, very short fused Cancerian. But God is in control.
I just have to give as good as i get!
There's this competency test (which i mentioned in passing last year). Basically it's a 3-hour lab session with a pass/fail grade. Fail and you repeat the year. It's that simple, or at least straight-forward.

I have also gone and set myself a ridiculously high goal which i actually have to achieve if i even want to continue dreaming about my first class. No pressure.
I once read a quote that went:
"Make success your only option and then go about your business like you've got no other option."

I am going to focus on that now. Success, that is, by adopting a positive attitude and curbing my cynical thoughts.... *LOL!* I really thought i could say all that with a straight face. No such luck. But seriously, i intend to work harder this semester. I need to, my priorities have changed.

Should still be interesting though, don't you think?

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Growth,

Heart Vacancy

January 16, 2012 J. 0 Comments

People come into our lives for reasons and seasons. I have always understood that (or at least tried to). Those same people will eventually leave. I know that. And it is for that reason that i do not allow them into my heart. I do not take temporary tenants as letting go is always too painful an experience. So i roomed only a few and prided myself on the fact that with just my few Jewels, i was content.

Little did i know that the winds would blow the other way. Sure i didnt let 'new' people in, but those same 'old' ones took turns twisting their blades in me. Kaku... Ray... Where are they today?
I don't think of them often. But recently i have begun to. Trying to see if the problem lay with me. The way i see it, my only fault was loving them too much. Giving them that much of me. But then of course i am biased. I am The Psychward Breakout after all. Living with me must definitely be a hardship.

I was in that frame of mind when i felt another Jewel slipping from my grasp. What could i do? Fight for what i loved of course. So i fought. But instead of victory, it felt as if with every battle, i lost her just a little bit more. The pain accompained with that thought was much worse than having a mere blade plunged into me... so i stepped back. Like the warriors of my past lives i knew that some battles were lost before they even reached the battlefield. This was one of them. So i sheathed my sword. This was one war, i wouldn't win.

Legend I am, in battle. Legend I am, as a warrior. Legend I am... in love! I hope you find all that you seek.

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Uni

Fight or flight?

January 14, 2012 J. 0 Comments

I just did some quick calculations based on my predicted grades for this exam and the numbers aren't looking good at all. I knew that I'd taken a huge gamble on this exam but i didn't realize just how big a gamble till i saw the numbers. I'm gonna have to tighten my proverbial belt this semester to get the 70% average i need. I am feeling quite deflated at the moment as you can imagine but no time to sulk, Pharmacology exams on Tuesday. Work! Work! Work!

*Oh! and about the ghost story below, i figured every Friday The 13th deserved a good ghost story! :)

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Nattarg

Ghost on the rooftop..

January 13, 2012 J. 0 Comments

Crush

New Crush Alert!

January 12, 2012 J. 0 Comments

I just found one of tv's best kept secrets - Behold, David Krumholtz! Oh my gosh! The man is just beauty-FULL! (Or he is when he's playing Charlie Epps in 'Numb3rs' anyway!) I needed some sleeping material (usually boring shows, black and white films etc..) so i put on an episode and now i'm done with the first season!!

Oh, his smile! X.X I'm love-struck!

Don't believe me? See for yourself.


Now imagine THIS spitting mathematical principles like rap lyrics. No Joke. Again, his smile!! It's so cute and sheepish and cute! And the hair!! All curly and unruly. It suits him.

Yes, I do have my girly moments and this is one of them. I'm sorry but this beats Tom Cruise in a Russian General's uniform. NEW CRUSH STATUS CONFIRMED!

*Long, dreamy sigh*

 Juicy RainDrops!

Movies 2012

January 11, 2012 J. 2 Comments

Top 20 movies I'm looking forward to this year ISA:

January:
1. The Iron Lady -- Saw the trailer and loved it. Margaret Thatcher's my kind of woman. Must-see!
2. Haywire -- I love movies with good-agents-gone-rogue. All the adrenaline, ass kicking and justice-killing! (LOL!) - A must-see!
3. Underworld: Awakening -- Always gives me goosebumps but i keep coming back. Must-see!

February:
4. Man on a Ledge -- Nice trailer. Might see!
5. This Means War -- Saw trailer. Comedy. Nice! Might see!
6. Ghost Rider: Spirit of Vengeance -- Nicholas Cage returns as the Ghost Rider. A definite must-see!

March:
7. Wrath of the Titans -- Suppose to be a sequel to 'Clash of the Titans'. Will give it a chance.

May:
8. Men in Black 3 -- "Here come the men in black..." - I never did know the next line to the song. :) MUST-SEE!!
9. The Avengers -- All my favorite Marvel Superheroes in one movie (happy dance) - Must see!

June:
 10. G.I Joe 2: Retaliation -- No explanation needed. Must-see! 

July:
11. Ice Age 4: Continental Drift -- I didn't really like the 3rd one so i hope this one's better. 
12. The Dark Knight Rises -- Again, Marvel Superhero! :D
13. Step Up 4 -- Not really sure why this is here. I didn't even watch the third one. :P

August:
14. The Bourne Legacy --  MUST-SEE!

15. Diary of a Wimpy Kid 4: Dog days -- Haha! Definite must-see.

September: 
16: Resident Evil: Retribution -- Must- see!


October:
17. Paranormal Activity 4 -- I don't usually do horror films but... *hides face* I saw the third with Knight. Seems only right that i see the fourth, don't you think? Must-see!

November:
18. Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn II -- Do you even need to ask? #TeamJacob! #TeamWolf! (I just had to add that) *Sweet smile*

Well not exactly 20 then - Sue me! - and a significant majority are sequels.

As you can see i've clearly had a little free time on my hands. Today's exam was well-deserved. I actually can't wait to see my result and that is saying something. Now to catch up on 12 hours worth of sleep...

Juicy RainDrops!

Uni

Immunology or Apocalypse?

January 10, 2012 J. 0 Comments

Sorry for being M.I.A. these past few days. January exams are here and you know what that means - Whose great idea was it to have exams right after the Christmas break anyway?  Needless to say that with the family here i didn't do as much work over the break as i should have so i was a bucket full of nerves today. I didn't sleep and couldn't eat. I had to keep reminding myself that it was an Immunology exam and not the freaking apocalypse. Of course that little bit of logic didn't help at all as I was far beyond the point of reason. As far i was concerned immunology exam was the apocalypse. You see, because the genius in charge of designing my semester timetable put in 2 hours of immunology right after 3 hours of Medical Microbiology every Tuesday, i barely ever listen and/or attend immunology lectures. After 3 hours of Microbio even you would need a break.

Anyway, that's all history now and the exam went well. So much better than I'd thought actually. But before i have my victory dance i'll see what tomorrow's paper is like.

EMBARRASSING STORY ALERT!
I think i mentioned somewhere up there that i hadn't been able to eat prior to my exams. Well, my tummy noticed too for 30 minutes into the exam it started rumbling. Loud. And endlessly. You know the normal 'grrrr' we all get once in a while, well mine was more along the lines of 'grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!' And just when i think it's finally stopped, it starts again. I could've died of embarrassment because the exam hall was so quiet! *covers face* I didn't turn to see if anyone had heard because i just knew they had. Especially Tom who was sitting RIGHT NEXT TO ME! My suspicions were confirmed when less than 10minutes later, Tom's stomach growled as well. Loud and clear! Call me devilish but i felt a kinship to him at that very moment... and had to forcefully bite back a smile. :)

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Change

2.0.1.2

January 06, 2012 J. 0 Comments

I started this blog (as with most people) as a vent. A place where there wouldn't be any rules and if there were any, they would be dictated by me. But somewhere along the line i got too personal. And more and more of the people in my reality kept finding their way here. I didn't want anyone who knew me seeing that much into me. It was way too close for comfort. What I'm trying to say is that I'd gotten too attached to this blog. Put too much of myself into it. I had to take time off. And now that I'm back, I'm going to take out a few entries. Just a minority.

This blog will still hold an essence of me. And i will still put up entries when i can. I will tell you hilarious university stories and complain about education too. I will tell you about how i fear I'm falling love and how i danced in the rain. i will write about love, pain and friendship.. and as i want to forgive someone that really hurt me a couple of years back, i will write about forgiveness too. It's time.

It's a new year - (have any resolutions?) - I do! I want to Live more, Love more and Laugh more. It's that simple. I'm also going to face a couple of my fears - Not really great fears but fears nonetheless.

I want to do a lot of exciting things. Witness a miracle. Do something extraordinary. Pause and gape in wonder. Be surprised. Be impressed. Write a letter. Befriend a stranger. Ride a roller-coaster. Create memories. Keep pictures... And lots more.

I hope you will let me share all these with you.

It's good to be back.


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