Lessons

Let your kindness be your kindness

November 16, 2021 J. 0 Comments


Why boast of your scarifices when you were rewarded for them?

Choose your reward. 

When you lend a helping hand, listening ear or supportive arm. Your kindness is a gift. 

The moment you boast of it, whether consciously or unconsciously, or demand an act in exchange - it comes a transaction and you will have received your reward/payment for it.
 
That singular moment of boast and the accompanying pride you feel as you are praised for your benevolence - that bragging right - that is your reward. 

And it is no longer a kindness but a transaction. One well and fully paid for.

Juicy Raindrops! ♡

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Night,

Breaking

November 13, 2021 J. 0 Comments


Some days are difficult. So difficult you don’t even want to face them. But you have responsibilities and people who depend on you. So you pull yourself out of bed despite the pain and desolation. And you do all that needs doing even when you don’t have the energy to speak. 

Even when your heart is broken into a million little pieces at your feet. 

 Juicy Raindrops! ♡

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Day,

Fall.. again and again.

November 10, 2021 J. 0 Comments


You tripped. 
It hurt. 

And worst of all, you had an audience. 
And you can hear the words they are not saying every time you meet. 
Or maybe the voice only exists in your head. 

Still. 
You’ve decided to wrap it up. 
You’ve crawled back into your shell. 
You can’t do this. 
You’re done. 

What if I told you to try again?
What if I told you that tripping was always part of the learning and growing process. 
That now that you’ve tripped once, you won’t trip again on the same pebble. 

It’s what you did as a baby, wasn’t it?
You fell, got back up and tried again. 
Repeatedly. 
Until you were running around on your little feet. 
Today you don’t even consider it a feat worth celebrating.
So what makes you think the process is any different now?
You might have grown bigger but the fundamentals remain the same. 
Get up and try again. 

I’m rooting for you. 
Juicy Raindrops! ♡


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Night,

.. stuck in a constant state of stage fright.

November 08, 2021 J. 0 Comments

I'm excited! Don't know what it is.. But it's a nervous, buzzing kind of excitement. It's good! I don't know what happens next but let's go for it. 

It's scary. Oh Lord, I keep waking up at night scared of what's coming.. What could go wrong with every thing - and send the whole house of cards tumbling. But, it's.. *sigh!!!* 

How do I say this? It's like holding your breath. And honestly not knowing which one will be your next or if you'll even have a next. So you're enjoying this one breath that you are holding. Just pleasuring yourself with it. It's sweet, it's fragile, it's frightening. It's precious too... 

Yeah! It's all that. Just staying on the brink. The brink of something huge. It could go either way. Left or right, up or down.. Or no where at all. But loving and living the now.. The RIGHT now.. The right this second.

Yeah, that's where I am. Stuck in this constant state of stage-fright and anticipation. Just hanging in a moment outside of time.

Juicy Raindrops! ♡
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