Night,

The only way

June 30, 2023 J. 0 Comments


I have already come too far
I have not only drunk the kool-aid
I have bathed in it
So it is too late for me
There is only one path before me and 
The only way is through

I can’t go back
I don’t want to go back
I have already come so far
I am in way too deep

Even risking a single glance backwards
will open portals to worlds of regret
And I have given up too much
Risked too much
Sacrificed too much
Lost too much on this path of mine
For this belief I hold so tight
That I cannot even entertain the possibility of an alternative

If I didn’t back then -
Even when it was difficult
Even when I didn’t fully understand it
Even when it just was a small feeling in my gut 
- Back when it would have made a difference
But I held on tightly
And let go even as I felt my soul split and crack
Even as my heart soundlessly shattered

I can’t go back
I don’t want to go back
I have already come so far
I am in way too deep

There is only one path before me and 
The only way is through.

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Juicy Raindrops! ♡


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Astronomical,

Love is warfare

June 18, 2023 J. 0 Comments


Our ‘Flight or Fight Instinct” is triggered when we start to fall in love.
Accelerated heart rate and breathing 
Elevated blood pressure
Release of adrenaline
Increased circulation to muscles and brain
Muscular contraction of stomach and intestines..

We have romanticised these warnings of course
We say:
“she made my heart skip a beat” 
“she took my breath away”
“he gives me butterflies in my stomach”
“I feel flushed and flustered around him”

As if these are not the same reactions our bodies have 
in times of high stress and danger,
like when we are facing a predator in the wild.

So falling in love is a form of trauma.
An existential survival warfare
which triggers our natural psychological reaction
honed through many years of evolution.

When your heart starts bounding in time to those drums of war
drop that heavy chainmail armour, lest it slow you down - and run.
Run while you can.
Run so maybe you can actually survive unscathed.

Juicy Raindrops! ♡

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Day,

By rights

June 12, 2023 J. 0 Comments


Them: You’re an activist.
Me: Really? I don’t think so. 
T: Why not?
Me: Because I don’t have causes. I simply have things I believe in and that matter enough for me to speak about. That is not activism. It’s human rights.

 Juicy Raindrops! ♡

Happy Democracy Day!???

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civil,

Mind your cuppa

June 02, 2023 J. 0 Comments


That is the thing with this life. Not every cup of tea is yours. 

*this she thought as she watched the stevia flavoured tea go down the drain, rinsed out the cup and went away to make a new cup of tea* 


Juicy Raindrops! ♡
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(Lesson from discovering and experimenting with new tea blends and flavours).
This is the first and last time I try stevia as a sugar replacement.

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