Day,

Live for you

July 31, 2023 J. 0 Comments


Do not shy away from pain or turmoil. 
I know we’ve been conditioned to hide. To fake it. To put a brave face on it. 
To pretend that we have it all figured out and we are perfectly in control.
So much that it becomes paranoia. 

Am I saying that you have to publicly share your troubles? No I am not. 
What I am trying to talk about is denial.
 And the pursuit of contemporary/perceived perfection. 

Just live your best life. 
For you. 
That is all.


Juicy Raindrops! ♡
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Astronomical,

Nature vs Nurture

July 24, 2023 J. 0 Comments


I have been on a KDrama spree on Netflix. All the great love stories - Ashes of love, Eternal love, Rise of phoenixes - and the newer ones like ‘Love between fairy and demon’ etc.

And each time, in each one, there is a point where the two are separated by death after some huge misunderstanding that has kept them apart has been cleared and they were finally together. Then death comes and what should have been the beginning of their happily ever after is ruined. (Until the miraculous rebirth of course).

This separation and wait is supposedly a test of time and true affection. I watch the person who is left behind waiting, sometimes I even share their grief and tears with them and I ask myself out loud:

People actually WANT this? Crave this? Why, for the love of all that is holy, would you want to carry such a heavy burden willingly? Or is it that they are already trapped in it and now there is no other way?

But then, those who aren’t in it.. we who have been in it and know its cruel sting.. why do we want to go back? Are we just all huge masochists hiding our depravity behind the veneer of love?

Is love just a concept after all, an abstract idea that we have created to explain away our secret desire for self harm? And is this auto-injury an inherent trait or a learned one, do you think?

Is love nature or nurture?

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Juicy Raindrops! ♡

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Night,

Borrowed light

July 17, 2023 J. 0 Comments


They say the moon doesn’t shine
That it simply mooches off the light of the sun. 

Yet despite all the twinkling, shiny stars in the dark sky on this eerie night
the only thing I can see is the moon.

Borrowed light it may be,
but it is what guides the path before me in this new and strange world. 
And for me, that is enough.

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Juicy Raindrops! ♡

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Lessons,

The language of love

July 03, 2023 J. 0 Comments


He could shout and scream until dusk
Until his throat is sore and his voice hoarse 
but it won’t reach her anymore than it would have 
had he softly whispered the words directly into her ears.

She only understands French and he is calling out to her in Mandarin. 
Even a child can see the obstacle here. 

Just because it is spoken louder, 
doesn't make the message any clearer
- not when the language is wrong.

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Juicy Raindrops! ♡

(About love languages and how we must learn to speak to our loved ones in ways which they can actually hear).

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nautical,

Begin again

July 01, 2023 J. 0 Comments


I know this feeling 
I remember it from before and recognise it for what it is 
It is my heart giving away little bits of itself at a time to another that does not exist within it. 
Without my permission, without my consent.  

As if I would let it continue. 

Juicy Raindrops! ♡
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