Friendship
So i'm sitting here staring at my screen and trying desperately to think of words that can accurately or even moderately explain the way that i'm feeling right now.. HIMYM is showing on the TV and that's when i hear the quote above. It made me smile because you see, part of what i'd been obsessing about was my friendship with Lola.
We are in different cities and therefore have made new friends. We've been having a lot tension of late. Don't misunderstand me. I love my new friends and Lola and i, we go way back.. but we have been slowly but surely losing each other. Our ability to talk with or without words is fading. It has been so for a while if i'm honest.
When i saw that i couldn't save us and also couldn't be friends with her friends, i accepted what i considered to be the inevitable. I didn't try anymore. And when i noticed that she was trying too, i didn't budge because why delay the inevitable, yeah?
I can be a huge drama queen but my feelings still remain - no matter under how many layers i hide them.
That i didn't do anything didn't mean that i didn't care. I was simply, in my own twisted way, protecting myself from the hurt that i knew would follow. Cutting off the strings on my own terms.
Yeah, i know it was awfully foolish of me NOW, but 2 months ago, it made a whole lot of sense. Like i keep stressing, i am not perfect. Not even close.
Anyway.
What i understand from the this one episode of HIMYM is that you can't dictate the rules of true friendship. It's either there, or it isn't. You can try to save it when it's on the rocks, i guess but you can only do so much.. the rest is an involuntary reflex - just like a cat coughing up a fur ball.
I get that now. So, i won't obsess about it so much anymore. It either will be, or it won't.. either way, Day will overtake Night, only to be overtaken itself. That is the way of the world.
Juicy RainDrops! ♡
N.B
Happy Independence Day Nigeria!
Inspired by Ted
"Friendship is an involuntary reflex." - Ted Mosby (How I Met Your Mother)
So i'm sitting here staring at my screen and trying desperately to think of words that can accurately or even moderately explain the way that i'm feeling right now.. HIMYM is showing on the TV and that's when i hear the quote above. It made me smile because you see, part of what i'd been obsessing about was my friendship with Lola.
We are in different cities and therefore have made new friends. We've been having a lot tension of late. Don't misunderstand me. I love my new friends and Lola and i, we go way back.. but we have been slowly but surely losing each other. Our ability to talk with or without words is fading. It has been so for a while if i'm honest.
When i saw that i couldn't save us and also couldn't be friends with her friends, i accepted what i considered to be the inevitable. I didn't try anymore. And when i noticed that she was trying too, i didn't budge because why delay the inevitable, yeah?
I can be a huge drama queen but my feelings still remain - no matter under how many layers i hide them.
That i didn't do anything didn't mean that i didn't care. I was simply, in my own twisted way, protecting myself from the hurt that i knew would follow. Cutting off the strings on my own terms.
Yeah, i know it was awfully foolish of me NOW, but 2 months ago, it made a whole lot of sense. Like i keep stressing, i am not perfect. Not even close.
Anyway.
What i understand from the this one episode of HIMYM is that you can't dictate the rules of true friendship. It's either there, or it isn't. You can try to save it when it's on the rocks, i guess but you can only do so much.. the rest is an involuntary reflex - just like a cat coughing up a fur ball.
I get that now. So, i won't obsess about it so much anymore. It either will be, or it won't.. either way, Day will overtake Night, only to be overtaken itself. That is the way of the world.
Juicy RainDrops! ♡
N.B
Happy Independence Day Nigeria!
