Night,
I know you are in pain.
I know you are not content.
I know that she is not the easiest person to live with.
I know it is well within your rights.
But..
But I CANNOT HELP THE WAY I FEEL!!!
And what I feel is that
you want to make a new family that will satisfy you better.
You are risking what we already have,
held together by bandages that it is,
for a gamble.
There is no way that this decision will FIX us
so this isn’t to FIX what we have
it is to give yourself an escape.
Another option.
Another go at it.
Something shiny, new and better.
I feel awful even thinking it.
Call me selfish, call me immature,
call me whatever you want
- but I have to get it out
or I will not be able to stop crying my heart out right now.
All I can hear is that you have given up on this family. On us.
Will it truly make you happy Baba?
Will burning down the house we already have make you happy?
Will it take the pain away?
Will a new family be what it takes to make you content now?
If it truly will,
But not now... not today.
1712100523
Juicy Raindrops! ♡
is this what it takes?
I know you are in pain.
I know you are not content.
I know that she is not the easiest person to live with.
I know it is well within your rights.
But..
But I CANNOT HELP THE WAY I FEEL!!!
And what I feel is that
you want to make a new family that will satisfy you better.
You are risking what we already have,
held together by bandages that it is,
for a gamble.
There is no way that this decision will FIX us
so this isn’t to FIX what we have
it is to give yourself an escape.
Another option.
Another go at it.
Something shiny, new and better.
I feel awful even thinking it.
Call me selfish, call me immature,
call me whatever you want
- but I have to get it out
or I will not be able to stop crying my heart out right now.
All I can hear is that you have given up on this family. On us.
Will it truly make you happy Baba?
Will burning down the house we already have make you happy?
Will it take the pain away?
Will a new family be what it takes to make you content now?
If it truly will,
I will find it in myself not to resent you for giving up on us
But not now... not today.
1712100523
Juicy Raindrops! ♡
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