Juicy Raindrops

Life is a series of choices In the end we are but a culmination of all the choices we have made in our lives The little, almost insignificant onesAnd the huge destiny changing ones.She, in all her chaos, is the one I have chosen as my partner through this journey of lifeShe is one of my life’s greatest choices.0304190522 Juicy Raindrops! ♡Title reference : Shakespeare's Sonnet 116Read More0 Comments

I hate how it feels like you’re waiting me outLike you know I will eventually break down,change my mind and accept your wicked proposition.It irks meIt makes me feel like you scoff at my restraint by hovering Like a waiting, seducing temptation Like I am only putting on a show and you are patiently watching for the endLike I am a child that's being indulgedmollified, so I will not throw a tantrum.And I am not even tempted. NotRead More0 Comments

15.. 16.. 17i have been counting all the breaths i have taken since i felt the blade cut through.one of them will be my lasti have never cherished my breaths as deeply as i do in this momentfeeling each one, savouring it.. wondering why i didn’t cherish every single one i ever took before. Juicy Raindrops! ♡0631150823Read More0 Comments

i did you wrongi know it.i also know that saying it was never going to work anyway, sounds extremely patronisingbecause the truth is that i could have given you a chancei could have given us a chance, i could have tried for us,for youbut i did not. consciously. intentionally.in retrospect i never saw beyond our differences beyond all the ways in which we were unsuitableand for that reason, i let you get as close as you didbecause youRead More0 Comments

I hate open endings even in the books I read. Give me a conclusion goddammit Give me some closureDon’t leave me hanging for the rest of my life Because I have a thing for clutching on to loose ends The feline of my spirit reacting like a cat to a strand of yarn Futilely holding on for dear life Forgetting that we always, always land on our feet Maybe not as gracefully for me But safely, definitely.Juicy Raindrops! ♡0901160624Read More0 Comments

Rip my heart out already so I can move onBecause I have continued to (love you and) hold on to that promise.My heart filled with hope and belief in that future you prophesied One where you and I would waltz once again like we did beforeOne, two three.. one, two three..You told your friend to tell my friend to tell meand somewhere along the way the message got lost to the narrative of others.Now I know thatRead More0 Comments

An important part of life is the brinks and our reaction to them. Who we are on the brinks of our lives.The brink of getting everything you’ve ever wanted The brink of losing everything you’ve ever had The brink of gaining something you want The brink of losing someone you love The brink of dying The brink of recovery The brink of shatteringThe brink of flightWhat choice do you make when you’re on the brink of desperation WHO are you in that moment,Read More0 Comments

Dear reader (if any exist at this point*),I came on here to purge out some pain like i usually do and ended up reading many of the posts here. Sometimes reading my own poems triggers me but somehow tonight, they gave me comfort - even the really dark ones inspired by really painful memories. Fancy that?In only days it will be the 13th year anniversary of my friend Aisha. You might remember her fromRead More0 Comments

i vaguely realise that i am going through something right now.it is something that yanks me out of every comfort zone i possess and forces me to share my life with another.against my will.despite it being, possibly, for my own good.down the line.in the long run.maybe.but realising this does not mean that the situation is resolved.i am still going through it. right now.i am still reacting to it. right now.i am still seeking comfort andRead More0 Comments

I would like to be a wealthy woman. It would help me do the things that I want to do.I would like to travel some. Not extensively but I would like to see the Ka’abah in this lifetime and visit the Mosque Al-Aqsa if it is meant. And Venice.. I have romanticised this city so much that it may not even live up to the one on the pedestal but still.. I would likeRead More0 Comments

Barely blossomed. This is how I used to think of myself. As something that was in a state of growth. Not there yet. Constantly. It took years for me to change that thought process. Not because there was anything wrong about it but because it didn’t accurately define me. Not completely; because I simply chose to stop waiting for an indefinite time when I will bloom. That thought process had so many limitations. Does that meanRead More0 Comments

That last little crumble of you faded today I felt it leaveI even waved it goodbyeLike that old blue T-shirt Faded from too many washesFaded from too much wearsI gave it away on my own It didn’t need to be taken from meI knew when it was time to let go It is time nowI am not waiting for you anymore.0305240323 Juicy Raindrops! ♡Read More0 Comments

I disconnected completely from my old life I collected the shards and pieces of my broken heart I took all that pain and mess and became an alchemist.I turned it all into fuelFuel that powered my art and ambitions And it burned for many yearsBut now it is all burned out I am not broken-hearted anymorebut I am shut down tighter than Fort KnoxNo more inflow of painNo more fuelI’m all burned out So I can not focus I canRead More0 Comments

Someone asked me about you today A new friend Well not about you in particularShe asked about my heartAnd when last I had given it awaySo I told her about you She replied almost immediately She said you didn’t count because it had been so long agoBecause we had been so long ago.I replied to her that in that caseI had never given my heart out then and the conversation continued until it changed to something elseShe dismissed youRead More0 Comments

She looks at the stars and I look at her.This is how it has always been and I fear that this is how it will always be.  Juicy Raindrops! ♡Read More0 Comments

I sit and I wonder of the flavours of the universeOf the things we have discovered and the things that remain a mystery to us.Of the things discovered, I am immensely grateful for you.J: don’t you think that’s a little too much praise for me?M: You? For you? This isn’t about you. It is about the son of the bean… paired with this awesome-sauce garlic and onion infused oil. 0511130323 Juicy Raindrops! ♡-There is a northernRead More0 Comments

Anything that’s better than nothing is not insignificant.Never scoff at progress. No matter how small.Consistency is what wins the race, not speed.0752 200623 Juicy Raindrops! ♡Read More0 Comments

Things that cannot be measured in absolutes cannot be deemed fake. Wellbeing is subjective and relative. I can still technically have flu but feel better after aromatherapeutic steaming. It is not ‘fake’ health or recovery just because it is temporary. I feel better than I did before. Subjective AND relative. 0615-150823 Juicy Raindrops! ♡_Inspired by a pretty awful case of the flu - which may or may not have been covid.Read More0 Comments

This is why one shouldn’t complainEspecially not about good things.I complained about a lack of fuel.The pain that fuels my work and creativityI complained that I had healed and lacked fuel.Well the heavens heard my cryAnd promptly fulfilled my wishNow I am filled to the brim with an abundance of fuel.Yay me.Yes - I will bleed constantly, but I will make art.After all, it is required for a beautiful pie-ce.1819100523 Juicy Raindrops! ♡Read More0 Comments

I know you are in pain.I know you are not content.I know that she is not the easiest person to live with.I know it is well within your rights.But..But I CANNOT HELP THE WAY I FEEL!!!And what I feel is that you want to make a new family that will satisfy you better.You are risking what we already have, held together by bandages that it is, for a gamble. There is no way that this decision will FIXRead More0 Comments