Eating healthy
I knew this was coming. I'd felt it since yesterday when I'd binged. What i didn't know was that it would escalate. I had a rather disturbing dream. It was centered on Ray. Need i say more? This (and other factors) has completely ruined my day of course. I'm falling into some kind of hole.. I'm screaming on the top of my lungs but no one can hear me. I spoke to Mama, didn't help. Then I called Rado. No help either. I really should've insisted on going out shopping with Bin2 today. And if i call Lola she's probably gonna pinpoint it. I don't have the energy to wear a mask today.I just wanna curl up in bed and do nothing (which is actually all i've done today anyway). I keep thinking and getting stuck in my past. What happened to pressing play, you ask? No idea. *sigh* It's still there i guess. This is just one of those weak moments we all have. I thought i'd gotten rid of it permanently but apparently not.
I feel terrible!! And it's worse cuz there are so many more important things I could be doing with this time rather than being a brat. But i have neither the inclination nor motivation. I'm gonna regret this tomorrow, just you wait and see.
On the plus side, I've decided to change my diet before i clog my arteries and get a CHD* and/or diabetes.
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| This was breakfast! :) |
*CHD- Coronary Heart Disease.
Juicy RainDrops!
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